You're My Boy, Blue!!!!!!!!

I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind.
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

[Now] Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind.

(this post was on the occasion of Patrick Cranshaw's death. Obviously, he was the actor who played Blue.)

A typical Friday night with Prince

"Nothing is true. Everything is permitted"
-Brion Gysin

From thesite.org. And you thought you were wild because you like to have your toes sucked. Amateur!

Amaurophilia: You like your partner blindfolded
Androminetophilia: boys who do girls dressed as boys
Amomaxia: You can't stop doing it in parked cars
Axillism: Sex with your partner's armpit
Dacrylagnia: You love it when your partner cries
Emetophilia: You have a vice for vomit
Eproctolagnia: A fetish for farting
Harmatophilia: Penchant for partners who are useless in bed
Harpaxophilia: Being robbed leaves you weak at the knees
Iantronudia: Exposing yourself to the doc gets you going
Moriaphilia: Arousal from telling dirty jokes
Oculolinctus: Eyeball licking
Odontophilia: Tooth fetish
Phygephilia: Weakness for buttock kissing
Teledildonics: Arousal from computer sex games
Tragolimia: Craving for sex
Zelophilia: Arousal from jealousy

http://www.thesite.org.uk/sexandrelationships/havingsex/styles/theazofsexlingo

The sooner you get in touch with yourself, the sooner you can be happy.

La Cienega just smiles and says, "I'll see you around"

It's four in the morning and as much as I 'd like to say that I can't sleep...the tuth is that I haven't even tried to sleep. There's nothing on television, and I just am not ready to call a day. I log on the net hoping that my California friend is awake to chat with (Rita), but I know that even with the two hour difference, most sane, sober people are asleep by now...Except for my neighbor. I don't know if he's sane or sober. Truth be told, I don't know too much about him. I got spoiled living next to Billy and Sarah for as long as I did. Now I have to start all over again with a new stranger. added to which, the other couple in the building next to mine has moved out, which means even more new neighbors. Agggghhh! Change!!!! I'm afraid of it. I'm allergic to it. Who said "consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds"? Asshole!
"Change comes from within!"...A friend of mine used to say that to homeless people when they asked for change. Wrong. I know, but I can't hear that now without thinking of her.
I don't know why I've decided to suddenly, at four in the morning, decided to post a mostly personal, confessional blog. Not that anything said has been remarkably confessional. "Keep you friends close, but your innermost feelings closer" or is that "keep your enemies closer"?...eh, same thing. Either one may be the death of me. I live in the subtext. The space between the line and the space between the line. A microtonal 16th note in a Chamber Piece, delivered so briefly and only infintismally off key that it seems more of a trick of the ears than a deliberate action. Thats me.
I'm not really sure why I'm even writing right now, and I was a highlight and key stroke away from erasing this moment forever, but I've already invested about 15 minutes just getting this far, so fuck it.
I dunno. Just feel free to call me on all my bullshit the next time you see me.

Goodnight.

P.S. there's no "current mood" setting for "in denial, bargaining or accepting" only "angry and depressed". I guess in myspace, you're not allowed to move on. You're only allowed to wallow. Just an observation.

Richard Pryor Addresses a Tearful Nation

Richard Pryor died this morning. He was 65.


"I live in racist America and I'm uneducated, yet a lot of people love me and like what I do, and I can make a living from it. You can't do much better than that."

He was the most beautiful human being on the planet earth, and one of my last living heroes. We are all worse off for his absence, but are all the better for his brief existence. I don't believe in God, but for today, I truly hope I'm wrong. Because now that his suffering at the hands of the terrible disease multiple sclerosis is over, I can only pray for a Richard Pryor hereafter. At least now, he is at peace.

There's no setting for DEVASTATED under "current mood" on this blog. oh well. I sit and listen to the first song on Joe Henry's forgotten masterpiece "Scar". It shares titles with this post. It's not specifically about him, but by the time Ornette Coleman finishes his sax solo and Henry sings the final line,:

"Love me like you're lying
Let me feel you near,
Remember me for trying
And excuse me while I disappear"

...I feel cleansed. I never realized how deeply I would feel this loss, but I feel empty and I don't have any tears left.

The Fox and The Bluths

The Fox Network Partial List Of Crimes
The Tracy Ullman Show
1987- Emmy Nominee
1988- Emmy Nominee
1989-Emmy Winner
1990-Emmy Winner
1990 - Canceled
The Ben Stiller Show
1993-Emmy Winner
1993 - Canceled
Family Guy
2000-Emmy Nominee
2002-Emmy Winner
2002 - Cancelled
Arrested Development
2004-Emmy Winner
2005-Emmy Winner
2005 - Canceled
Look, I'm not saying it doesn't suck. Truly. To paraphrase Bill Hicks, which I really am loathe to do, we live in a world where shows like "Freaks and Geeks" are murdered, yet Jim Belushi Continues to make television. But listen. If you've been watching the infernal network known as Fox since year one, like I have, you just get used to it.
Yes, the suits that run the networks are shortsighted moneymen with no sense of real quality and no real agenda beyond the bottom line. Go figure. That's how T.V. has been run since the Sixties. It's the only way Fox has ever been run. Granted, there's plenty of shows that are better off consigned to the great recycle bin of the ether (Beans Baxter, Models Inc., Freaky Links), but the good ones...the really great ones, you just learn to love at a distance. Sometimes you get lucky and that Great Pumpkin of Television blesses you with a DVD boxset of Undeclared episodes, or in the case of Family Guy, a Lazarus resurection, but most of the time you just sit around moping about how you'll never see Flying Blind again, and if just maybe Fox had given it a chance and not canceled it after one season, maybe Charles Rocket wouldn't have commited suicide last month. But perhaps I'm over thinking that one.
My point is this. A frog and a snake were trying to cross a river and...well, you know where this story goes. After all, we always have known that the Fox is really a snake.
By the way, in the interest of full disclosure, Rupert Murdoch, who owns Fox, owns Myspace as well. Don't get too used to it.

Dylan Thomas

Alright, I know this marks me as a significant dork, but I think this is bad ass. This is a link to Dylan Thomas reciting "Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night" (as featured in the films "Dangerous Minds" and "Back to School". You know what I'm talking about.)

http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15377

If this tickles your fancy, Salon.org has got the entire, eleven-volume set of Dylan Thomas recordings from Caedmon as free MP3 downloads available to members.

I'm a man of needs

Following Sinclair's lead, 'cos I can't decide on five. Google games are great!:

Bobby needs: a home.

Bobby needs: a re-do.

Bobby needs: sealants.

Bobby needs: to know.

Bobby needs: his weed.

Bobby needs: a new job.

Bobby needs: to gets paid.

Bobby needs: to give a rest.

Bobby needs: to be adopted.

Bobby needs: out TODAY!!

Bobby needs: a heart transplant.

Bobby needs: a new catchy title.

Bobby needs: a late night talk show.

Bobby needs: all the help he can get.

Bobby needs: a wife, or some surfing.

Bobby needs: to check his e-mail fast.

Bobby needs: to be in a cape more often.

Bobby needs: for his mom to be at home.

Bobby needs: a dose of thorazine, not a jail cell.

Bobby needs: to be in a place away from the Jews.

Bobby needs: significant human input to be useful.

Bobby needs: to admit he has a problem and go to rehab.

Bobby needs: some freakin therapy, or at least thera-flu..

Bobby needs: to get his (bleep) off the floor and try again.

Bobby needs: to spend some more time in the studio soon.

Bobby needs: to play a little Bump and Jump to ease his soul.

Bobby needs: money badly to get him enroute to settle his debts.

Bobby needs: to be told the teacher is not going to fight with him.

Bobby needs: his own therapist to shake himself of these crazy girls.

Bobby needs: to make sure you know that you can't sue him for lying.

Bobby needs: a family that can provide love, structure and supervision.

Bobby needs: not to tell everyone when he plans on having sex w/ his wife.

Bobby needs: it particularly tonight because he's King of Hearts in the current Heart Fund drive.

Bobby needs: warm clothes, but his wish list also includes Legos, K’Nex, a guitar and a Play Station 2.

Bobby needs: to look out for government agents who are looking for Ted because he has psychic powers.

Bobby needs: to know, and the movie needs us to agree, that he is a better man than the murderer he murders.

Bobby needs: to be with Nikki, because they (Nikki and Bobby) did have a very romantic moment not too long ago.

Bobby needs: to get with somebody that is totally on his wave-length -- and if he does, and Bobby gets comfortable, look out -- a championship ...

Bobby needs: to start lifting weights (body building would be a good idea) or swimming or doing some other type of fairly intensive physical training.

Bobby needs: to say to hell with it and either hook up with someone else or just be the comic relief he is in the comics instead of some weird little ice rose making fruit cake.

Bobby needs: a family with plenty of patience for all his questions, a sense of fun to bring out the shine in his beautiful brown eyes, and the wisdom to set boundaries and help Bobby stay within them.

Bobby needs: your help.